I could only struggle for so long. Attending today’s interview just made me realize how much I really want to teach. Whatever questions they ask me, I could only answer if they asked me why teaching.
Entering into the room was just the beginning; we were given an article to read. After that, it was a session where we had to introduce ourselves. When we had to explain why we chose that nature of the job, I just felt like running out of the room because I only had teaching on my mind. I attended the interview only to just give it a try (I don’t know how to explain why I am trying something I don’t like. The situation is really complicated.) A friend was telling me yesterday that we should always try and try and his words were like playing so loudly in my mind so I sat through.
Anyway, I managed to come up with some answer but when the man was explaining to me the nature of the job, I found my mind wandering back to teaching. Then we had to take four tests to get through to the second round of the interview. I went to the place at 8.30am and could only leave at 3pm after all the tests.
Personality, logistics, administrative and judgment tests – All of those also contributed to my wanting to run out of the room. But the “You’ve got to try” sentence kept appearing in my mind and I just stayed and tried to get through all of it.
They also asked what was my ideal career. My ideal career is one that I can relate to children. A job that is challenging will help me develop my character and gives me a sense of satisfaction when I help others.
At the end of the day, I’m still wondering. Why? What am I really doing? I don’t want to be stuck in a job where I can’t put my heart in and regret it. Teaching is more of a job that I can relate to. I like children. I like teaching. I know I sound like I’m obsessed over teaching. I don’t know why. But I feel teaching was something in my life that I feel will enable me to help some of the children. It’s a meaningful job. For teaching, it would be my ideal career. But sometimes, the more you want something, it will just seem so out of reach. I hope my legs will grow longer and in time to come be able to reach.
An ice-cream now would really help..
Random Thought of The Day
You know it's love when you find yourself doing the following.
You find yourself daring to take a step to do the things that the other person likes. You'll find all the things that you almost dislike, you'll like. You do things differently because of the way the person has an impact on you. You think of the person more than yourself. Everything that happens, you want to share it with them most. You don’t care what others think because you will only care about what the person thinks about you. There is no room in your heart for another person. You are paying attention to all the minute details that doesn’t seem important. You don’t give up trying because you know that is what you want and without it, it’s pointless. It’s like nothing can take the place of him/her. Don't ever say I Love You if you don't mean it because although love is a simple word, it's not easy to do so.
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self seeking. It is not easily angered or jealous. It keeps no record of wrong. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. Love always trusts, always hopes, always protects, always perseveres. Love never fails.
There is nothing love cannot face; there is no limit to its faith, its hope and endurance. There are three things that last forever: faith, hope, and love; but the greatest of them all is love.