:) QUEEN* ; NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS IN THE FUTURE,I SHALL LIVE MY LIFE WITH SANGUINITY

Thursday, May 28, 2009

Happy Birthday Effie! (:

Somehow if the train leaves, i can't stop it from leaving.

I'm just glad I got onto the train at the right time and at the right place. What mattered was the journey. It left me memories I can recall and lessons that can be learnt. I know one day I would have to get off the train like how I first got on. If I have reached my destination, I would have to alight and the train would still have to carry on with its journey. I can't force a moving train to stop, not even death. No matter what happens to you - whether you will carry on taking trains or not, the trains will still have to carry on with its journey. You'll miss the ride but still, you've got to catch the next ride. You'll never know which train you'll like best if you never forget about the unpleasant memories of the past ride. Hang on to the beautiful memories and forget the unpleasant ones. Then one day, you will find the train you really like. And it will be a train that stops at where you stop and goes to where you go.

1:06 AM

Thursday, May 21, 2009

Why do I not have a problem when I message you but when I message my friends, error messages start showing up. Its so weird. My phone loves you or does it miss you or what is wrong with it seriously? Lol. So did you receive the message or did you ignore it? Ohhh its going to remain a mystery like how your life and mine is now. That funny feeling is not fading so we are never going to talk. But you look so happy. As always. (:

Congratulations dear.

3:01 AM

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Although things are a little different from what I expected, I am still glad and know everything happens for a reason. When things came to this stage, I thought I would hate you but I guess I don't anymore. We can never expect everything to go on smoothly and not everyone is perfect. I mean even I can't do things right sometimes so how can I expect the same for others? I guess the most important thing is to learn from it and move on.

I'll just let it pass and I like how things are like now anyway. I always liked it that way. I don't know why I let other factors convince me otherwise. I guess not only you are to blame. I had a part to play for not making it work out right too. Whatever it is, this was hard to understand all along when two pieces don't fit well together. Maybe I shouldn't be so stubborn or adamant about believing in something you can't do because maybe its just the way you are.

3:00 AM

I'm bad at describing events that happen in my life. So I'm sorry if its boring. Maybe pictures would be more interesting. They can be found on facebook. (:

Hong Kong

Day 01

Didn't do much because they only allowed us to check in at 4pm. Hahaha. The staff gave us two complimentary drinks when my friend stared at him. So we went to the bar and drank. I had some grapefruit drink with vodka I think. It tasted so weird. Then we didn't do much after except walking around the shopping centre beside the hotel. We ate pizza hut. Then we went shopping at the supermarket (bought kiwi). We also bought one tub of Haagen Dazs ice cream! But then the fridge not cold enough, everything melted so we drank ice cream. (:

Day 02

Met up with Effie, Aud, Lihyee and Tracy at Yau Ma Tei. Had lunch at the hotel's cafe then we went shopping at Ladies Street and Langham Shopping Centre. Met up with polly in the night. She treated us to a great meal. Hahaha. Then she brought us to Argyle Centre. OMG. (we visited that place 3 times) We shopped until like close to 12am? When we came out, all the shops already closed.. Lol.

Day 03

We went to Ocean Park. Nothing much to say about that place. Think KL's Sunway Lagoon more interesting. The only funny thing is that we keep playing those funny games like throwing rings around the bottle neck and using bean bags to hit the cans because Lihyee wanted the soft toy. Hahaha. The games are not easy.

The view at The Peak was very beautiful but couldn't take much pictures.. By the time we had dinner, it was 8pm. We went to Mongkok to eat. They gave all of us so much rice only Aldrin finished his. After that we went Argyle centre (2nd visit) and then we ate desserts. Audrey and Lihyee were competing to see who finished first. In the end Lihyee was the last to finish because she keep laughing at nothing.

Day 04

This day was dedicated to shopping. Lihyee came to Shatin to take pictures with snoopy. Omg. She was so excited she was running around the whole place taking pictures with every snoopy that could be found there. We went maxim to eat and ordered so much food! In the end, we had to play some guessing number game to make people finish up the food. hahaha. Then we went to Central's H&M. I swear the place is not like very very fantastic but still can find things to buy there.

Then we went to see the Avenue of Stars at Tsim Sha Tsui. It was so freaking cold. The night scenery is beautiful. Effie wasn't feeling very well so she couldn't join us for dinner. ): But she bought mcmuffin to eat for dinner. Haha. We ate at the hotel's cafe again and their bread is so hard. (my teeth hurts because of it) After that we went to Temple Street. By the time we were shopping halfway, they were already closing their stalls. So lame.

day 05

We went back to Ladies street and Argyle Centre(3rd visit). see how much we loved Argyle centre? (: After that we went to this shopping mall where they have factory outlets for lots of brands. But we didn't manage to buy much stuff because we had only like half an hour to shop. Effie and Audrey bought KFC from there. Lol. Then we met up at airport and had the most rushed dinner in my life. After that all of us were rushing for our plane. Like last call already then we were so scared we couldn't reach on time. Hahaha.

Now that the 5 days are over, I miss Hong Kong so much. I knew it was going to be over so fast because we were having so much fun. I miss meeting up with all of my friends in the morning and listening to their nonsense. Like once, they were talking too much on the train and they missed the stop that they were supposed to alight at. They realized it only when they were like 5 or 6 stops away from the stop they were supposed to alight. Hahaha. And this Audrey lost one side of her shoe and Lihyee's dustbin had no cover. Effie called me at night to talk to me and told me about her bathing adventure.

Lihyee is forever laughing at nothing and everything. Audrey is so chirpy and happy. Effie always say the funniest things when we stop laughing. Tracy is the shopping queen. Aldrin helped us with the directions and translations. Thank you all of you for making this trip an enjoyable one. I miss my friends and the milk tea. If only I could meet up with them everyday.. But I know we are all so busy! If we could meet up at least once a week, I would be very happy already! But still, I am glad that they still went on with the trip despite the swine flu. Hope to see you guys soon.

I love Hong Kong but without all of you, I don't think I will love Hong Kong that much! (:

2:28 AM

Monday, May 11, 2009

Friends can lift you up and make you feel like they are throwing you into the sky!

Thank you for all your encouragement and well-wishes.

Take care all of you and see you guys soon!

Take care my bimbos too! (:

2:10 AM

Sunday, May 10, 2009

A boy his age, I never expected his thoughts to portray an impressive level of maturity in the things he thinks about. I was glad to sit there and listen because it was interesting the things he had to say. I was listening to him intently without even realizing it myself, and was looking forward to the following sentence that he had in mind. He kept people's mind rolling. Maybe its his hidden talent. (:

It was fun sitting near the sea and looking at the waters while enjoying the breeze and listening to your horrible singing. Thank you my friend.

2:42 AM

Friday, May 8, 2009

That Familiar Cologne

triggered her memories. Or was it her friend?

It all started out with something you created with nothing. You were subdue, smart and sincere. She thought it was something that was quite impossible. But she fell into it without realization. You sacrificed, you gave, you cared. She had so much fun with you, she was always looking forward to the dates with you. The dates were fun, out of the ordinary, not those usual movies and dinners but exhibitions, playgrounds and beautiful sights and streets. Her habits were also changed.

People either hated you or liked you. But she loved you, hated you, felt for you. That confusion, that frustration she felt after you left, she will never understand. She walks around in hope of understanding. But all she gets are voices of confusion in her head sending beads of tears rolling down those cheeks. Those silent tears was a result of all those strong feelings for you, all those things she did for you. She never regretted. She felt that it was all worth it.

You always had a way to put that smile back on her face. You never once made her unhappy for long. But the time that you ever did, you never bothered about the smile on her face anymore. And people could tell her smile was just a false front. Behind it lies a sad story that she keeps inside her, unable to share.

The only regret she would probably have would be that she would never be able to talk to you again. She could only stare at your back, stare at your hair. And behind your cold brown eyes, she can feel the avoidance to speak or even think of that passionate love that both of you shared. Nobody would understand. Not even her, not even you. You choose to run, she chose to hide.

She continued on with life knowing she would become stronger than before. She just had to try. But she didn't know she was too confused to trust again. She just let it go. She was too tired trying to hold back. She believed nothing was worth it anymore. You left her to pick up the pieces. No you didn't bother. It meant nothing anymore. She took the gamble and lost. The price she had to pay for the gamble didn't hurt as much as losing you. It couldn't even be compared to one tenth of what she went through on days without you. But she found herself back in your arms again; comfort found from your originalities.

She never kept it away. It was always on her wall, always. She never could take it down because it was so special, too special to be hidden underneath, just somewhere for the dust to settle on. And that familiar cologne that you wear, she would never forget. It brings back memories. And those memories, she would always be so proud to recall. It never failed to bring back that smile while she speaks of those memories. The only difference about that smile is the bittersweet look of it after reminiscing.

I read her thoughts. "This love is special and those memories are created by you and me. A perfect love was never easy to begin with. At least you and I grew so much from it."

1:35 AM

Sunday, May 3, 2009

So, as life goes on, you learn, you fall, you crumble, you find friends more precious than what you've lost. You will realize that this world is so huge and there are so much more beautiful things out there hidden so that you can have the fun of exploring and discovering.

When bad things in life happen to you one by one, you'll find yourself so lost. Whatever you do, you feel so bad about yourself. When you fail to trust even your strongest feelings, you'll soon regret not trusting yourself and having so much hope on something that was so hopeless. (Don't tell me you don't when you still do. You're just lying.)

You're right. I can't do what she can do because I am not her. We are two different people and we work in two different ways. You are too blinded by what you are trying to find that you can't appreciate what is right in front of your eyes. And I am not going to try to be like her because I am who I am and I like it. It's too bad that you don't know how to appreciate it. No two people can be identical because even twins have different thumbprints. And the varieties are what makes the world so colorful.

I think back, I ask why and I know I was just lying to myself. When I found it slipping out of my hands, I lie to myself that as long as I try my best, its possible. But since it was already going to slip, no matter how I try, it's still going to drop out of my hands.

I know that the truth always hurts. But its so much better than hearing lies. Lying to myself would be miserable since I hate it if people lied to me. I mean who would like to listen to a lie? And how much truth can there be in a lie?

Life is a beautiful piece of art. You're the artist and whatever you do, its your masterpiece, your interpretation. It makes so much more sense when you've seen the bigger picture of everything.

7:00 PM

Saturday, May 2, 2009

The irony of ironies is that the grass on the other side is always greener.

its the most valid reason. (:

10:32 PM