Friday, November 30, 2007
ITS EITHER ME OR YOU. and the very least I could do..I wish I had the courage to.But everytime I see you, I swallow my words.forgive and forget.I need to forget. I wish I had more to talk about..Abby, you gotta stop dreaming.youknowthisisgoingsimplynowhere.
11:25 PM
& there she goes,
SMILING AGAIN ;
TheNightTimeHighQUEEN*
Monday, November 26, 2007
I GOT IT. LIKE FINALLY. i think i enlightened myself today.I have to admit that I was making the world sound like its really bad when things arent like how it was.Maybe it was just my fault that I did not blog all of those as drafts.That was my way of venting my anger. But it was totally wrong.In a way, it was altogether ironic.a bad day with someone who was making you smile all the time?!what was I thinking seriously.I shouldnt let other people affect the way I feel.I control my own feelings. I have the say.Why did I write all those or even feel that way? I think Im so silly.and it took me one year to realise it and think back about what you said.Thank you for saying all those to me.Because I am happier now.I learnt to be happier after what you said to me.And its a really great feeling.And whatever you said makes sense to me now.It all comes together and fits.Although its a little too late but at least I hope I changed.I wont deny that I WAS very negative.But for now till forever, I want to be positive.Because for everything that happens, there are always 2 sides to it.When your glass is half filled with water.Will you think that your glass is half full or half empty?You made me learn to see that my glass is always half full.thank you very much and a big hug.thats the very least I could say to you. :)iknowitshardbutimgoingtotryandmakeyouproud. :)
7:52 PM
& there she goes,
SMILING AGAIN ;
TheNightTimeHighQUEEN*
Saturday, November 10, 2007
WHY MUST THERE BE HOLES?once i fell into a deep hole.i tried really hard to get out of this deep deep hole.it seemed easy but it was definetely nothing like it.finally i got myself out of the deep deep hole.I walked away as far as I could from that hole and was convinced that the hole was nothing like heaven. Not even close.And that was the last place I would want to get into again.I walked so far away from it I thought I didnt know it existed anymore.I went around satisfied with the fresh air and nice scenery I could enjoy.for a year or so at least, I thought that way.then in an hour or so after a year, I felt like I was running backwards to the hole that I came out from.I know in me that its not going to be easy coming out from that hole again.And its just quite impossible for me to get into that hole anymore or even anywhere near to it.But there's just some kind of force thats luring me into that hole.And its getting stronger and stronger.My mind says no. My heart says yes.
2:03 AM
& there she goes,
SMILING AGAIN ;
TheNightTimeHighQUEEN*
Sunday, November 4, 2007
Worship you my Lord, till the very end.In the quietness of it all with only one voicethe lights came on and the music started playing.Althought it was only a few chords being played in the big auditorium,it was ringing with such a nice and mesmerizing melody.Although it was repeated again and again, it wasnt irritating and monotonous.First the keyboard with the beautiful accompanyment.Then the voices, the deep bass and the melodic guitar followed by the rhythmic drums joined in.Together as one, worshipping.Amidst the crowd stood a girl.she listened to the keyboardist and wondered when she could worship God with the talents God gave to her without fear.To be able to play such beautiful accompanyment and lost herself in worship.She had moved on and forgot about her past failures already.Or has she not?
8:00 PM
& there she goes,
SMILING AGAIN ;
TheNightTimeHighQUEEN*
Friday, November 2, 2007
Friends, Boyfriends, Girlfriends...friendships and relationships are like strings.you see. each one of us are like the strings.and the things that joins us together are the knots.things gets messy when many strings gets knotted with one another.and imagine many strings entangled with one another.the more strings, the messier it will become.and then it will take more time to entangle the strings.Problems in friendships and relationships is somewhat similar to entangled strings.When you are irritated, angry and impatient, the more you try to entangle the string, the more the string will tangle and it will get even messier.So the fastest way to entangle the string is to assess the way the the string is tangled with the other and entangle the string patiently.And when the knots on the strings are all unknotted, wont you feel glad?!Its the same. all the same. :)
11:38 PM
& there she goes,
SMILING AGAIN ;
TheNightTimeHighQUEEN*
