Tuesday, January 29, 2008
EMOTIONS A really nice event. A really nice poster. A really nice picture. A really nice presentation. It all seems like its easy to do. but you will never imagine the amount of time and effort one person put in to do it. a nice show. who do you thank? The host. Do you thank the studio people? No. We dont even know their faces. I mean, its okay for them because its a norm. We are the back stage people and i guess we choose to do so because we are not comfortable with being in front of the camera. But when we work so hard and yet, get blamed for not putting up a good show is the worst thing that can happen. And I totally understand how it feels like when not even a nice word is said about something that you put in so much effort to do. no words. no expressions. no craziness. no nonsense. I think I understand now why some people only choose to talk when they want to. And at the rest of the time, they just stay silent. These people know very well the way to control their emotions. They just choose to stay silent because in a situation when you feel so irritated and all, its just best to not show expressions, not talk. Because its the words and expressions that causes conflict. I am one who displays my emotions very obviously. what I am thinking, you can tell straight away from my expressions and actions. And today, I think I will learn. Learn to hide my emotions well. Because I guess it would help me alot. Its a good thing if people do not know what I am thinking.
4:43 PM
& there she goes,
SMILING AGAIN ;
TheNightTimeHighQUEEN*
Friday, January 25, 2008
RANDOM LINES REPEATED TEN TIMES what do i do. what do i do. what do i do. what do i do. what do i do. what do i do. what do i do. what do i do. what do i do. what do i do. i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you tried to forget tried to forget tried to forget tried to forget tried to forget tried to forget tried to forget tried to forget tried to forget tried to forget dont talk much dont talk much dont talk much dont talk much dont talk much dont talk much dont talk much dont talk much dont talk much dont talk much close friends close friends close friends close friends close friends close friends close friends close friends close friends close friends in my mind in my mind in my mind in my mind in my mind in my mind in my mind in my mind in my mind in my mind roll roll roll roll roll roll roll roll roll rollits hard to talk to anyone. and even if i choose to do so, i end up not being able to say. things like these, its more about making your own decisioni guess. I dont know why. one lie, two lies, three lies, many lies. enough of it.
12:35 AM
& there she goes,
SMILING AGAIN ;
TheNightTimeHighQUEEN*
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
DONT TRY READING IT UNLESS YOU ARE BORED.
sometimes, I just feel so trapped in situations. situations I know that is hard to handle. I tend to run away from the problems rather than go and confront it. And I remember there was this one time that I was feeling so bad. I dont understand why all that had happened. I prayed and trusted in the Lord but I didnt know why it all turned out so messy and weird. But surprisingly the end product turned out quite good. Maybe the Lord is teaching me to have more confidence in myself. I was probably thinking of what I could do rather than let the Lord have full control over the situation. It was chaotic. I felt really miserable and irritated. Sometimes, I feel that people dont understand what you go through and they just like to assume that things are that simple. They just tell you its so simple. But it always depends on the situation. If everything was smooth, I would also say that its simple. I find it so hard to love some people around me sometimes. I feel like they are befriending you just for some purpose. Maybe the real reason is that they care about themselves and nothing else matters except themselves. Love Love Love. Where do I find so much love to love all these people when all they do is get on my nerves. God, help me love all these people. Its not going to be easy. And life is just so amusing. And in this whole paragraph of words that I just typed, if you have realised, there are many random thoughts that comes out from me. I have no idea why this is so random. But anyway, maybe its just me.
12:40 AM
& there she goes,
SMILING AGAIN ;
TheNightTimeHighQUEEN*
Tuesday, January 8, 2008
alright. Forget about New Year Resolutions. Its probably something that I never ever wanted to do before.and I have no idea why I wanted to this year.:)
9:37 PM
& there she goes,
SMILING AGAIN ;
TheNightTimeHighQUEEN*
Thursday, January 3, 2008
HELLO 2008I welcome the year 2008!The year of sabbath! Its a meaningful year!My resolution this year is to 1) Live life to the fullest.2) Grow closer to my G12 family!3) Do my best in everything I do!4) Try to be happy and always smile!5) Be patient and not get angry easily.6) Have a closer walk with God.7) To be an encouragement to all my dear friends!I will think of more! hahaha.Time really flies. This year in august, I would already be 19.Gosh. I really like being 18.And I dont want to be 20. But thats life. You cant always have what you want.Your life, your story. :)
12:45 AM
& there she goes,
SMILING AGAIN ;
TheNightTimeHighQUEEN*
