:) QUEEN* ; NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS IN THE FUTURE,I SHALL LIVE MY LIFE WITH SANGUINITY

Friday, September 25, 2009

Sunny sunny little town,
lives a girl with dreams of love.
love those tiny little minds,
like a diamond being refined.
Dream big dream big little dreams,
now she wonders how it'll be.

1:34 PM

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

As time goes by and reality sets in, the girl will let it go.

Failure is a part of life and its capable of making one grow.

Although it clouds your mind with negativity, and its discouraging,

remember your dreams don't end and it's just another beginning.

There will be a new start to every end you face and a lesson you can learn.

But pursue your dreams and not let it go if it keeps you going.

For if you quit trying, you will never know what happened if you kept trying.

10:39 PM

A Girl's Dream

There was a girl who had a dream to touch the little lives.

To be a friend, to give, to care and to show that she'll be there.

To be with them through toughest times and be an inspiration,

To help them find their dreams and goals and do whatever she can.

This dream she hopes to always dream and remind her of the impact she can make.

For all these she believes is worthwhile when she sees those happy faces.

To be part of their lives and to be remembered is what makes it all worth doing.

To care, to share, to love and be there and to never forget the times they shared.

6:36 PM

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

you have no idea what I am thinking and I have no idea what you are thinking. I have no idea what you think I am thinking and you have no idea about what I think you are thinking. You have no idea what I am thinking about what you are thinking about thinking because sometimes I don't even know what I am thinking. And even if I don't think about what I am thinking, it bothers me because I am thinking but I don't even know what. So maybe it is good to stop thinking because some things can never be solved through thinking and in times like this, it's good to remember

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him and he shall direct your path." proverbs 3:5-6

After so much about thinking, it just goes to show that thinking just gives you a headache and it's best to stop thinking so much and do something to stop yourself from thinking.

The Lord has been more than a friend to me and I know that I can always look to him. I don't have to fear because he will never lead me to where his grace cannot keep me. (:

9:07 PM

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Recently, I went back to the company I did my internship at. The place was still more or less the same but well mainly things have changed. There is a lot going on and people seem to be shuffling and some operations are left uncompleted.

At first, when I was asked to go back, I was a little apprehensive. I did enjoy myself during the 6 months learning and complaining about doing administrative stuff that I detest but the Lord was gracious and had given me two great supervisors to guide me along. But still firstly, after pushing back my plans of going back to visit them many times, I felt that it would be awkward to reappear once again.

Secondly, I would love to go back and would love working at that place but the thing is that the location of the place makes it so inconvenient for me to travel. whenever I am rushing, I always run into the trouble of getting stuck in a traffic jam or having too many people on the bus and long routes and when I take a taxi, it's so not worth it.

But anyway, my boss called me and asked me if I would be interested to go back to help the company. I thought why not go take a look? I mean no harm right? But well, after returning, I realized how much things have changed. It's true that they are surviving and doing well but the atmosphere just seems different.

During my internship days, there was so much fun I had that I think I should remember and treasure. I always looked forward to having lunch with my supervisors. They would randomly bring me to nice places to eat nearby and since I was a student, they subsidised my lunch if it was more than $10. Sometimes, they would just ask me to pay $5 or they would just treat me. After that, we would always go shopping at supermarkets when there was some more time left after lunch buying lots of munchies and snacks to have in the office.

They brought me along to parties to expose me to the outside world. I remember the first time I attended such party was at Clarke Quay's Forbidden city after the Dance of the Dragon gala premiere with my 2nd supervisor. The club was decent and well it was my first time staying out late. He didn't push me to stay and all he said was if you have to go you can go but if you want to stay you can stay. He was nice, he showed me around.

The other following parties that I went to were Cleo magazine and another Health magazine party. They dared me to challenge my limits for the amount of beer I could take and well it was an eye opener. I did have my fair share of being sober and taking bus no.5 back after the party and also getting high after drinking beer and wine and having my supervisor to send me home.

There were so many fun times I had with them, I would take all day to put it into words. But at the same time, I wish I wouldn't forget this part of my life I went through. I grew and learnt and was introduced to nightlife and opened my eyes to see the world for myself. They pushed me beyond my limits so I could do better and protected me when I'm walking near the crocodile's mouth. They taught me and were patient and sometimes said things that were not nice to hear so that I would push myself and prove them wrong. They gave their opinions and said their share so I would improve. I am lucky to have had the experience they have given me.

When my internship ended, I felt happy to go back to school but at the same time it was hard to leave them and the fun that I had.

If both of them are no longer working, things wouldn't be the same. The fun, the challenges and the pushing. It was truly an unforgettable experience and I wish that things would be the same. But sometimes, we are like balls in the ball. If the ball spins, we will spin too. we just have to keep moving on. I miss working with them and I miss those days but seeing that they have moved on, well, I just wish them all the best and I hope they will be proud of the first intern they had. I hope the experience they had with me was comparable or better than mine. (:

“May you never forget what is worth remembering, nor ever remember what is best forgotten”

12:39 AM