WHY MUST THERE BE HOLES?
once i fell into a deep hole.
i tried really hard to get out of this deep deep hole.
it seemed easy but it was definetely nothing like it.
finally i got myself out of the deep deep hole.
I walked away as far as I could from that hole and was convinced that the hole was nothing like heaven. Not even close.
And that was the last place I would want to get into again.
I walked so far away from it I thought I didnt know it existed anymore.
I went around satisfied with the fresh air and nice scenery I could enjoy.
for a year or so at least, I thought that way.
then in an hour or so after a year, I felt like I was running backwards to the hole that I came out from.
I know in me that its not going to be easy coming out from that hole again.
And its just quite impossible for me to get into that hole anymore or even anywhere near to it.
But there's just some kind of force thats luring me into that hole.
And its getting stronger and stronger.
My mind says no. My heart says yes.